Wednesday, June 6, 2012

My Jersey














I have an old grey jersey
It's sleeves are longer than my arms
It has a hole or two
From years and years of wear
I've had this very jersey
For over 13 years
It used to be my husband's
Those many years ago
But on a visit when I had no jersey of my own
I borrowed his and never gave it back

When winter comes
I dig my old friend out
It probably shouldn't be worn in public any more
For it's long and baggy
Bent all out of shape  
Untidy looking to some
To me this warm and comfy jersey
Is like soul food on a cold winters night
It's a hug from an old friend
When I put it on
It doesn't hug me tight
It fits just right

This old grey jersey gives me
Comfort, warmth and safety
It's like a baby's blankie
Or their dummy that they hold so tight
This jersey is my pacifier
On a dark cold night
Out of fashion
Out of date
I don't care
I love this jersey

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Speak your truth and liberate yourself

If you are something like myself and shy away from speaking your truth for fear of hurting someone or losing someone, rest assured that if you have children they are bound to get you speaking some of your truth.

Young children can not speak for themselves and it is therefore our responsibility as parents to do that for them. Not all parents take up the challenge and some still close their throat chakra and keep their truth to themselves, but not loving, responsible parents. As hard as it is for me to speak up, I did it. I said what I needed to say and stood up for my child.


You'll be amazed at the results when you do this. It's not to say that you need to be nasty or attacking, just truthful about how you feel.

I've done it twice now. First for my child, and then I stepped out and released some of my own personal truth and it was so liberating. And you know, the world didn't explode or come to an end. No one shouted at me or told me to get lost. I was listened to and taken note of. And all because I worked from a place of love and gave my feelings a voice of truth and feeling directly from the heart. I didn't accuse or shout or demand.

I also decided that I would let my truth be heard, come what may. What was the worst that could happen? I wasn't saying these things to hurt anyone. I was saying them to set things straight.

They say the truth will set you free. I now understand exactly what this means. I'm not talking about the difference between telling the truth or telling a lie. I'm talking about saying what you feel or keeping everything to yourself and stewing in your thoughts. I feel that I can walk a little taller and the weight on my shoulders is a little lighter.

It's a very difficult step to take. You imagine all that could go wrong. You fear abandonment, ridicule or a fight - and if you're anything like me, conflict is another thing that you don't deal with very well.

But opening up, even just a little bit to start can actually make the world a different place for you to function in. You start to realize that it's not fair to expect other people to play guessing games and figure out how you feel and why you react the way you do. I'm not saying that all of these truth telling sessions will go as well as mine did. There are people that will react badly. But that is through no fault of yours. That is because of their insecurities and their need to always be right.

Lift your heart and your head and speak.