Drive your life

As my odometer clocks another year  I look in my rear view mirror trying to find what I have accomplished in this last year. I struggle to find anything that stands out. I've been doing the day to day things that get me by. I start to look further back beyond this last year.

I find a few things that stand out a little. I finally reach my school days and remember the future me I imagined I'd be when I grew up. I compare the imagined and reality images in my head and they are nothing alike. How did I stray so far from my path?

I grew up. My priorities changed and my interests changed. And life happened. It doesn't always happen as you imagine and plan. But is that necessarily a bad thing?

I think more about recent events in my life and how the rest of my life prepared me for them. We learn seemingly useless information on the highway of life. But when we reach an 'accident' we suddenly know what to do and how to handle it. This is only because of the lessons that we picked up along the road. Lessons that were sometimes hard and at the time felt unbearable.

So although your road might have twisted and turned in what you see as the wrong direction, know that you've taken detours and possibly a left turn instead of a right to be here where you are today. And here is exactly where you need to be.

If you're not happy with where you are, don't make a u-turn, because the road behind you has changed. That road is not the same as you remember and the people who where there before have moved on. If straight ahead doesn't look good, then take a left or a right.


You always have the choice. Take the steering wheel and drive. It's never too late.

2012 End of the World

There are movies, documentaries, books and articles predicting the end of the world this year. While these originate from the fact that the Mayan calendar goes no further than the 21 December 2012, the conclusion that this is the end is not definitive. There are various schools of thought that have been shared.

This is the time for cleansing where the world as we know it will be gone. But there will be a whole new world where the spiritually enlightened will be left to live in a peaceful, harmonious place, communicating by telepathy. Or like with many other dooms day predictions nothing is going to happen and it's all noise.

What are your thoughts on the various predictions? Do they change when you learn new things, or read about people dragging dogs behind cars and torturing one another? A world gone mad. Maybe the Wolfs in Clive Cussler's Atlantis Found had a good plan in building gigantic ships to house the chosen until the cataclysm had passed. Then this "perfect" nation would replace the decimated population. All our problems solved! Of course someone has to decide who belongs to this "perfect" nation.

How about a cleansing where the population explosion is reversed  - The Universe decides - along with the destruction of all industry and housing? Level the playing fields and take us back to caveman times. Hunting and cultivating food, but no one has a gun or car or any advantage over others. No starvation for anyone and we get a chance to build a great new eco-friendly world where everyone is taken care of. We have the knowledge learned in this world to build it better. Don't we? If you catch extra food, use it to barter for something you don't have. We all own the land. Insert your utopia features here. Does this sound like an 'apocalypse' you might want to happen?

The Day is less than 6 months away. Have you made any arrangements for the day? Maybe booked your December holiday in the Drakensberg mountains in South Africa, the new highest altitude in the world according to the 2012 movie? Making sure you're in the air traveling across date lines to actually miss the day entirely? Nothing?

Let me know your thoughts and your plans. I have no plans, other than to live today. If I sit around and wait and nothing happens, many opportunities would have passed me by and I would have wasted a whole chunk of my life. Even an apocalypse won't give time back to me. And if it does happen, it might be the last time the sun sets for me, because there is no guarantee that I'll make it to the new world.


Enjoy your day.

My Jersey

I have an old grey jersey
It's sleeves are longer than my arms
It has a hole or two
From years and years of wear
I've had this very jersey
For over 13 years
It used to be my husband's
Those many years ago
But on a visit when I had no jersey of my own
I borrowed his and never gave it back

When winter comes
I dig my old friend out
It probably shouldn't be worn in public any more
For it's long and baggy
Bent all out of shape  
Untidy looking to some
To me this warm and comfy jersey
Is like soul food on a cold winters night
It's a hug from an old friend
When I put it on
It doesn't hug me tight
It fits just right

This old grey jersey gives me
Comfort, warmth and safety
It's like a baby's blankie
Or their dummy that they hold so tight
This jersey is my pacifier
On a dark cold night
Out of fashion
Out of date
I don't care
I love this jersey

Speak your truth and liberate yourself

If you are something like myself and shy away from speaking your truth for fear of hurting someone or losing someone, rest assured that if you have children they are bound to get you speaking some of your truth.

Young children can not speak for themselves and it is therefore our responsibility as parents to do that for them. Not all parents take up the challenge and some still close their throat chakra and keep their truth to themselves, but not loving, responsible parents. As hard as it is for me to speak up, I did it. I said what I needed to say and stood up for my child.


You'll be amazed at the results when you do this. It's not to say that you need to be nasty or attacking, just truthful about how you feel.

I've done it twice now. First for my child, and then I stepped out and released some of my own personal truth and it was so liberating. And you know, the world didn't explode or come to an end. No one shouted at me or told me to get lost. I was listened to and taken note of. And all because I worked from a place of love and gave my feelings a voice of truth and feeling directly from the heart. I didn't accuse or shout or demand.

I also decided that I would let my truth be heard, come what may. What was the worst that could happen? I wasn't saying these things to hurt anyone. I was saying them to set things straight.

They say the truth will set you free. I now understand exactly what this means. I'm not talking about the difference between telling the truth or telling a lie. I'm talking about saying what you feel or keeping everything to yourself and stewing in your thoughts. I feel that I can walk a little taller and the weight on my shoulders is a little lighter.

It's a very difficult step to take. You imagine all that could go wrong. You fear abandonment, ridicule or a fight - and if you're anything like me, conflict is another thing that you don't deal with very well.

But opening up, even just a little bit to start can actually make the world a different place for you to function in. You start to realize that it's not fair to expect other people to play guessing games and figure out how you feel and why you react the way you do. I'm not saying that all of these truth telling sessions will go as well as mine did. There are people that will react badly. But that is through no fault of yours. That is because of their insecurities and their need to always be right.

Lift your heart and your head and speak.

Protecting oneself from bad news

How do you protect yourself from bad news? 

I've stopped actively listening to the news, but I haven't stopped talking to people and bad things happen to people all around and they tell you about it. I have never thought of protecting myself before now and have found myself absorbing these horrible stories. My heart aches for the people involved and I find myself thinking about these things over and over again.

I don't think that my spirit was meant to endure negative energy for prolonged periods of time. My rehashing the stories I've been told and feeling the pain and sadness for them is of no use to anyone. But I can't seem to stop my mind from seeking out this sadness. I know bad things happen and I have empathy for the people it happens to, but I don't want to bring myself down for days sometimes, because of these bad things.

So how to stop it?

I'm not going to stop talking to people and I'm not very well going to tell them that I only want to hear the good things they have to say. That is not what life is about. Having relationships with people is letting them tell you about themselves and what's going on in their lives, including the bad stuff. Sometimes talking about it is a step in their healing process. You should be honored that you can help in that process, but that doesn't mean that you have to take the bad stuff with you.

Here is a little advise I've been given. I haven't had a chance to try it out yet so I can't tell you if it helps. Go outside into nature and breath deeply. Breath in clean air - relatively depending on where you are and breath out the old, stale air. Walk bare foot on mother earth, allowing her to absorb all the negative energy from your body. Meditate. Imagine a golden light extending more than a meter from your body. The significance of a meter is that your aura extends a meter from your physical body, and this golden light needs to extend slightly past your aura to protect it when coming into contact with another persons aura.It's like putting yourself in a golden bubble of light.

I would love to hear what you do to protect your spirit. If you haven't been doing it up to now and try any of these, let me know in the comments how they work for you.

Spoiling the view

Why do you go to the botanical gardens?

I go to enjoy nature, breath some relatively fresh air and get the children out the house and away from electronic devices. I also enjoy the little bit of exercise that I get from walking around the place. I relax and connect to my inner soul and sometimes take my shoes off to feel the grass beneath my feet and interact with the earth. I want to teach my children to enjoy and cherish the beauty of nature and the earth.

But how disappointing when I get there to find the remnants of a party strewn all across the lush lawns.The lawn isn't looking so natural with champagne bottles and blue serviettes lying all over the place. And the rose garden should have bark chips keeping the soil damp, not ice-cream wrappers. 

Who are these people that come to one of the few places we have left in the cities to be with nature and leave a trail of destruction and filth behind them? If they are allowed to continue behaving as they please these havens of nature will soon only feature in scrapbooks of what our city used to look like.

How do you suggest we sort them out? 

I thought an entrance fee might help. It does to some extent. But there too I have found litter spoiling the view. Charge a higher fee and you'll have less people and you'll also have those who believe they paid entrance, so they can do as they please. 

If you don't appreciate the view of nature, then don't go to these places. Keep your rubbish at home with you and invite your like minded friends to take their litter with to the party at your house.

Take my hand